I have not been using my blog for such a long time now. But since my new work allows me to talk to only my computer the whole day I decided to write down my thoughts once again.
My office room overlooks the two famous avenues in Makati City where numerous rallies have been held. Lately my country has been going through a lot of dramas because of the whistle blowing of some people about the corruption happening in the government. It is so ironic and downright frustrating to watch or hear these people in government pinpointing at each other at who is most corrupt in the government and yet they do not even acknowledge their own corrupt practices. The Filipino people are not tired of going to rallies or fighting for truth but what held them back from joining these president resign rallies are those people calling for truth and reform when these people are as corrupt as the highest government official. Why not come out clean, confess to your corrupt practice before throwing hell to other people. The so-called ordinary Juan and Juana are being taken for a ride. These people are making fools of the Filipinos, playing with their hopes and dreams of a better country.
I have always believed that if you are not doing your part in making this a “better” country then better shut up or leave. Some people think that if they pay their taxes they can curse the day these government officials were born. However, ask these people if they are as clean as they think they are. A tip to a “buwayang” police for beating the red light, paying fixers to make your papers move faster than the person who has been in line for hours and other seemingly “ordinary” actions that Filipinos have engaged in and tolerated for the longest time.
So No, don’t tell me I have become complacent about my country; and no don’t try to convince me that GMA is more corrupt than Erap; and please don’t tell me that we deserve this kind of government because we voted for these people and given that we don’t have any options left but to put in place certain people like artists and former newscasters. (There was never a clean election to begin with… and people who really want to serve the country will not kill for a post in the government, they will just silently serve others like hundreds of people I know.)
I still hold dear my country but no longer the people. I am still proud that I am a Filipino but not proud of what my government or my fellow Filipinos have become. I believe that all of us are at fault why are country is like this (from a simple disposing of garbage to paying correct taxes; simple things we can not do right). I don’t think the real truth will come out after all these dramas because we failed to acknowledge that we are also at fault and greatly failed for acting or doing our part more than just talking. I know that we still have an option and that there is still hope that the Philippines will become a “better” country than what it is today but not in my lifetime. I know I am also at fault because I have tolerated wrongdoings, seeing no evil, hearing no evil and speaking of no evil… I have failed because I let my idealism that was once a burning fire turn to a mere flickering spark.
Corruption like poverty will always be with us, simply because we acknowledge there presence in our midst but we fail to act on them. Self-righteousness will get us nowhere. Its either we do something or die trying or we simple keep quite and not add up to the noise pollution. Unless we provide people better ways or options to uplift our country, the bickering and pinpointing are mere theatrical acts that no longer convince people.
