80% weird + 35% normal = Me

You Are 35% Normal

You sure do march to your own beat... But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all You think on a totally different wavelength And it's often a chore to get people to understand you

How Normal Are You?

Dear: Blogthings, You don't know me... but what the heck sige I'm weird na nga. hehehehe. I never liked things or do things that people normally like or do. Sus I don't even think nor talk the way "normal" people do. So is being typecast as weird makes me special? or unique? Grabe! give me a POSITIVE adjective naman. he5x. But I am me. And its either you take me as I am or don't take me at all. bwahahahah getting weirder. This usually happens when I' m so bored.... zzzzzz

Dear Gloria...

How naive can you be? You only realized that the air in Metro Manila was already polluted because you took time off to play golf in Antipolo? How fortunate for you and unlucky for the millions of Filipinos expose to your so-called polluted air everyday. How would you like to see the beggars roaming around the streets or the amount of garbage being collected everyday even those left to rot or the bare lands being quarried... by playing golf also, well you can't see that from Antipolo not even in the white house in Baguio??? Now tell me, how would you see all these things and more if you are too stuck up and insensitive to issues that needs to be resolved when you're too bent up in changing the constitution and ensuring a "good" name for yourself? Wake up and try smelling the air beyond the four walls of the palace that the people's money are used for to sustain its grandeur. Instead of thinking about your career and giving favors to your political friends try listening to your people and respond to what they really need.

I am really praying for you. Hoping that its not just in playing golf that you will be awakened by the real situation of our country but in "really" doing your JOB as a president of this country. It will be such a waste for you to be remembered as the president who uses her hands to just play golf and her mouth to give empty promises. You only have a few more years to prove your worth. If you don't BEAT THE ODDS it will beat you or maybe the fed up Filipinos will beat the crap out of you and your no-good friends.

Looking forward to your real awakening.

PS. Golf is such a boring game. Next time try sailing along Manila Bay maybe you'll have a different realization.

...

some things are better left unsaid...

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You Should Drive a Lamborghini

A true daredevil, you're always in search of a new rush. Clearly, you're a total speed demon... just don't get caught!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

I'm no Lamborgini... More like a Ferrari. he5x And I prefer Red over Yellow. (di ba tess?) I REALLY wish I have a driver's license na... desperately wish I can drive already... Promise this YEAR! (Dear LTO....)

Your Rising Sign is Sagittarius

Happy and upbeat, you are always optimistic. Even when you're in a bad mood, people find you friendly. On the flip side, you're very restless and bored easily. You've been known to pick fights just for the fun of it. You've got a great sense of humor and a quirky outlook on life. Aggressive, wild, and unconventional, no one knows what you're going to do next.

What's Your Rising Sign?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Is it just me or are these testssss freaky? there are so many correct answers ha. Parang nababasa niya kung ano ka talaga... Ganun ba talaga yun??? (thanks mace for the this site, by the way I'm a Phoenix) he5x Getting addicted to this site na... I was told I'm 80% weird, a true cult leader. And a New Born Soul at that. I was a Rabbit in my past life (duh!?). I'm an Indie Rocker! (Yes 'man) My Monster name is "Demon Claw" that likes to torment priests. Uhmm okay so compliment yun? thanks! Sensya na po medyo may hang over pa from the gig last night. In fairness ang so called U2 night eh ibig sabihin ilang piling awiting lang ng U2 ang kakantahin yung iba eh mga kantang pang-basag tenga. ("o jessica... something something...")

Para kay Anna, Jenny at Frances... at para sa mga wala dun si tess, si ling at ang 6 6cycle mind at sa U2 ("Walk on" "In a little while") Kampai mga pips! (PS. Don't drink San Mig Pale Pilsen and Sna Mig Light afterwards... whoa...)

weekend contemplation

Weekends should be longer, not just two days, but make it three please, (Dear Calendar,)... People should have enough time to spend with their family, friends or even just for themselves... to think, to remember or to even to just pray.

Marathon reading... Can't put down the book by Barbara Michaels so I had to read it until 3am yesterday. Her novels are great, its informative and keeps you hanging on the edge of your seat, well for me its my bed. I need to find more of her books to complete my collection. Speaking of collection, got so many postcards now. (Dear friends who are traveling, please send me postcards with stamps on it...)

The gospel yesterday was one fo the best, I think. (Mark 10:2-16) "What God has joined together, let no human being separate." (Pay attention now married people!!!) The priest's homily was also inspiring. How I wish people will put into practice these things. Please do not get married if you're not ready, without any savings, full of insecurity or unsure of your feelings. The virtues that every married people should put into practice: Love, loyalty, honesty, trust, faith, hope and sheer determination and perseverance to make things work out and to provide the needs of the family. (Haller mga unemployed indolent married people!) Sad that we do not see these vitues anymore. There are so many unhappy marriages, my heart just goes out to the children that have to suffer because of these couples. Has the meaning of love changed so much that it is more of the "I" than the "we" and "they"?

Allow me to be mushy (again). My grandparents (mother's side) is the true epitome of love. I remembered the love poems they made for each other, their sweet caring touches, funny banterings and teasings, how they look out for one another, their love songs, the romantic way they smile and talk to each other as if nobody exist but them. I became overly romantic because of them. My passion for life and in eveything I do, say or think, were all inspired by them. I really believed that love can conquer everything. But when life slaps you with reality, things changed. I became cynical because of other people and some circumstances. I am sure they will be sad with me that I have changed so much since they passed away. But last night during the mass, I suddenly missed them terribly (sniff), I realized that I need to get back on track again. If I allow myself to be affected by non-believers of true love then I will be like any ordinary person whose life has not been well lived because of not being able to share the love they have, or even allow themselves to be loved. What a sad and lonely life that would be...

Someday I wish all married couples will be like my grandparents, full of love, hope, faith and trust. The songs "love will keep us alive" comes to mind. I know in the future this will come true, maybe not in my own life, but hopefully in others. That is my prayer. Spread hope pips, start loving!

6 cycle mind groupie

Need I say more? ;-)

comfort books

When you're feeling down and it seems the world has gone weird on you and it's like you are drowning in your own world and you only want to be left alone and wallow in your solitude.... that is the time you look for something that will inspire you or comfort you. and I found it in two people I have not met but completely inspired me... Ha Jin (author of The Crazed) and Bill Waterson (Cartoonist, Calvin and Hobbes)

"The Crazed" was a book that literally talked to my soul. There were phrases there that provided answers or clarifications to my own quandaries. Weird as it may sound but the novel was like about myself, my story at present. Just like what happened to Jian, when he was forced to take care of his professor who was hospitalized because of a stroke, he was so sure of himself, he knew what he wanted and he was determined to achieve his dreams. But after listening to his professor's ramblings, he lost himself in the process and started to wonder if what he thought was the "right" thing for him (e.g being a scholar) was what he really wanted or if this will make him happy and fulfilled. In the end he was forced to take a path less taken but he was more wiser and more sure that the road ahead will bring him the satisfaction he is looking for. It seems that there is a "Jian" and a little of the "professor" in all of us that questions the very existence of our being and how best we can make do with what we have. Call it "crazy" but we all go through the same thing once or more than in our lifetime. It is quite scary when a certain situation or event in your life can completely change everything. But just by reading the book I felt older but somewhat wiser... but right now I'm still fighting with my own demons...

Prior to "Milenyo" I spent a whole day reading Calvin and Hobbes. Who would have thought that a cartoon can bring so much joy and inspiration to someone who has become cynical and skeptic about the world. I remembered my favorite book "The Little Prince", we really need to keep in touch with the child within us. Anyway the exchanges between Calvin and Hobbes were really fascinating because the topics were so profound. You also have to love the snowman arts that Calvin makes and how he talks to the monsters under his bed. But you know it is so nice that despite his "quirks" and naughtiness, Calvin is a well-loved child. He is actually a down to earth kid, creative and very intelligent. Suddenly I miss my childhood and the innocence of being a child.... Anyway here are some lines from the comic book that will make you think and smile as well... Enjoy!!!

"There's no problem so awful that you can't add some guilt to it and make it even worse!"
-Calvin
"So the secret to good self-esteem is to lower your expectations to the point where they're already met?"
-Calvin
"I don't know which is worse, ...that everyone has his price, or that the price is always so low."
-Calvin
"When I grow up, I'm not going to read the newspaper and I'm not going to follow complex issues and I'm not going to vote. That way I can complain when the government doesn't represent me. Then, when everything goes down the tubes, I can say the system doesn't work and justify my further lack of participation."
-Calvin
"The secret to happiness is short-term, stupid self-interest!"
-Calvin
"The strength to change what I can, the inability to accept what I can't, and the incapacity the tell the difference."
-Calvin
"Everybody I know needs a complete personality overhaul!"
-Calvin
"I used to hate writing assignments, but now I enjoy them. I realized that the purpose of writing is to inflate weak ideas, obscure poor reasoning, and inhibit clarity. With a little practice, writing can be an intimidating and impenetrable fog!"
-Calvin
"You know how people are. They only recognize greatness when some authority confirms it."
-Calvin
"History is the fiction we invent to persuade ourselves that events are knowable and that life has order and direction. That's why events are always reinterpreted when values change. We need new versions of history to allow for our current prejudices."
-Calvin
"As far as I'm concerned, if something is so complicated that you can't explain it in 10 seconds, then it's probably not worth knowing anyway."
-Calvin
"People think it must be fun to be a super genius, but they don't realize how hard it is to put up with all the idiots in the world."
-Calvin
"Life is like topography, Hobbes. There are summits of happiness and success... ...Flat stretches of boring routine... ...And valleys of frustration and failure."
-Calvin
"Reading goes faster if you don't sweat comprehension."
-Calvin
"What I like is when you're looking and thinking and looking and thinking... And suddenly you wake up."
-Calvin
"There's never enough time to do all the nothing you want."
-Calvin
"There's more o this world than just people, you know."
-Hobbes
"Why should I have to WORK for everything?! It's like saying I don't deserve it!"
-Calvin
"I muts obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul."
-Calvin
"I go to school, but I never learn what I want to know."
-Calvin
"To make a bad day worse, spend it wishing for the impossible."
-Calvin
"If you couldn't find any weirdness, maybe we'll just have to make some!"
-Hobbes
"Weekends don't count unless you spend them doing something completely pointless."
-Calvin
"If you do the job badly enough, sometimes you don't get asked to do it again."
-Calvin
"Reality continues to ruin my life."
-Calvin
"I hate to think that all my current experiences will someday become stories with no point."
-Calvin
"Do you hate being a girl? What's it like? Is it like being a bug?
I imagine bugs and girls have a dim perception that nature played a cruel trick on them, but they lack the intelligence to comrehend the magnitude of it."
-Calvin
"Childhood is short, maturity is forever."
-Calvin
"I don't need to compromise my principles, because they don't have the slightest bearing on what happens to me anyway."
-Calvin
"True friends are hard to come by...I need more money."
-Calvin
"Do you hate being a girl? What's it like? Is it like being a bug?
I imagine bugs and girls have a dim perception that nature played a cruel trick on them, but they lack the intelligence to comrehend the magnitude of it."
-Calvin
"In my opinion, we don't devote nearly enough scientific research to finding a cure for jerks."
-Calvin
"Why waste time learning, when ignorance is instantaneous?"
-Calvin

Dear Inang Bayan,

"As a human being, I should spend my life in such a way that at the final hour I could feel fulfillment and contentment, as if I had completed a task or a journey." The Crazed, Ha Jin

After two weeks of solitude, locked inside my room, listening to the rain bashing my windows I thought I will find answers but what I found were more questions. At the end I was hit hard by reality, a truth I do not think I can handle right now. I am afraid that the reality and truth that were once my guiding light to the path of higher meaning were all false. I was made to believe that indeed we have the ability to decide our destiny and that we are captains of our own ships. I even thought that I can make a difference in a world so corrupt by malicious people. How wrong I was... People were already telling me how my idealism and the great expectations I have set for my country, for my fellowmen and for myself were all wishful thinking, that in real life it can not be as perfect as I hope it could be. I didn't want to believe them, I thought that if I start accepting this as the "truth"; that if I let go of my so called "wishful thinkings" then I will be like any ordinary Filipino; working for the sake of earning, no less than the financial gain that they will receive and the prestige of attaining more wealth and even power.

I didn't know that being passionate about serving my country and advocating for several issues that concern my fellowmen would put me in a difficult situation and even be laughed at because I fought for my beliefs. I molded my dreams and career path to my "wishful thinkings" and made this the source of my inspiration. I made the people that talk less but worked twice as hard in making this country a better place my source of strength but lately I found out that they were as false and as hypocrite as the people I loathe. How disgusting these realizations are especially coming from peole who are preaching and teaching "good governance." I detest these hypocrites who makes the cancer of this country worst than it is before. The worst kinds of people are those that pretend they are so righteous and incorruptible but in their hearts they're mere frauds, doing the right deed for the wrong reason.

There is a thin line between what is "real" from what we are made to think is "real."

I only wanted to serve my country the best way I can... I I just want a life well spent, that before I die I could have made a difference... But like I said, right now I can not handle the truth... I found peace at feeling empty... for now I'd rather feel this way than have my soul suffer more.

I hope Inang bayan that you can understand what I am trying hard to say but you see words are lost in this endeavour...

Rambling...

i accomplished nothing
promises not fulfilled
questions left unanswered
to-do list remains undone

my abode engulfed me in its solitude
the wind whispering calming words
in the four corners I remain safe
away from the vexations to my soul

the torrents of rain day by day
spoke of thy soul's deepest feelings
the world watched as dry tears fell
not a sound was heard not even a heartbeat

but life has to go on with no end in sight
a vestige of longing for a solitary life
this sojourn now remains to be a dream
where waking only gives nightmares

dreading the last minutes of non-existence
the soul basked in unuttered saddness
for in nothingness it felt at peace
and in that peace there was emptiness